My head hurts so much. I guess it’s all the pain.

I love him so, yet the tears fall like rain.

The first meeting was awkward, but soon I got to know,

That he may love her, but I will love him more.

So perfect a life it would be,

Together forever, just him and me.

Yet as I know, dreams don’t come true,

They, like love, are an illusion too.

All my life I have looked for that certain someone,

To take me away, but he himself has already gone.

Not far away in the distance, but in the heart.

I was only the friend, but he loved another from the start.

Thinking all night and crying all day,

Seems there is something I have lost, the pain just won’t go away.

Like a dagger in my heart, it tortures me again and again,

Praying to God to tell me, why give me this pain?

From the start I have received nothing and lost everything in life,

I wish he would give me one chance, and make me his wife.

To the moon and stars I would go just to see a smile on his face,

To see him happy, from one corner of the earth to the other I would race.

But he does not know of my feelings, for he is with another,

And if she makes him happy so be it, him I shall not bother.

Yet he still torments me, every time I think of this guy,

You give the others such happiness, yet me all the pain, I ask you sir, why oh why?

A friend I am, a friend will be,

And the day I am gone he will see.

No other could love him as much as I,

Loving him gave me so much pain; I could do nothing but cry.

I ask myself, why didn’t I tell him before,

I brought this pain on; I gave a heart which he tore.

I want my heart back, but I fear it’s all too late,

He gave that heart to his love, his life, his mate.

And on that note, I leave you heartbroken,

He went away and with him all my happiness was taken.

How I miss him so, yet cannot utter a single word,

My own self has silenced me; I have been paralysed by my hurt.